Sharing the hurt, sharing the recovery.


Sharing the hurt, sharing the recovery.

When I got sober some time ago, I got the best sponsor ever (for me) and he helped me accept and understand that I was an alcoholic and could never drink again if I wanted a good life. He took me through the first five steps of the recovery programme, gentle pushing at times, being hard on me when needed. And then, through circumstances, he had to leave the area.

I was devastated! HE was the reason I had got sober, HE was the only person that could understand this messed up person that I was, what would I do now???

We kept in touch for a while, but communication got less and less. Then one day his wife called me . . . he had lifted a drink! I tried to call him, but he wanted nothing to do with AA or AA’s, this man I thought had saved my life! I remember that night going to my meeting, sitting there with all this going through my head, I lifted the Big Book and it fell open at page 449 (3rd Edition) And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation, some fact of my life unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.I got some peace of mind through reading that, still had concerns for my friend, but I had to leave it in God’s hands.

I am now on my fourth sponsor, although there have been different reasons for changing, (dying, growing apart, life’s taking different paths etc) but have parted on good terms with all and have been glad that they have been in my life. They all have been able to help me, in some way, with an aspect or event in my life that I was going through at that time. My Higher Power certainly works through people.

The same goes for sponsees, I have had a few that have been with me for a long time, I can now share what is going on in my life with them as easily as I can share with my sponsor.
Maybe, just maybe I have been put in the path of others to help them in the same way that I have been helped. When others share their stories with me, I have comfort in the knowledge that I am not the only one who has gone through this pain. And no matter how hard it is for me to relive some of my past, I hope I can share with others the things that I have gone through so they can may be helped and feel understood.

Sharing my hurt has helped me share my recovery in this wonderful, God given fellowship.

Arthur Z.