Red Dotter . . .

I had the honor and privilege to attend the 54th General Service Conference in York, my first as a delegate.

I have heard the hype about conference from previous delegates. I’ve heard them talk about the voice of AA being represented, about democracy in action, and about the spiritual experience of being “a part of”.

I did not really understand it until I experienced it personally. Over 100 drunks, mostly from GB, but also representation from all over the world – there for one common goal, one purpose. That goal being the fulfillment of one of our three legacies, Service, through Unity and Recovery. To make sure that the primary purpose of AA continues being just that: to stay sober, and help other alcoholics achieve sobriety.

What surprised me the most, was the sense of unity. Regardless of sex, creed, religion or the lack of it. Didn’t matter if you were a “low bottom” drunk, “high bottom” drunk, young or old. I felt at home, I felt a part of, I felt that we were all there for the same reason.

I don’t know about you, but when I was drinking, I used to argue just for the sake of argument. Over the weekend, there were numerous hot topics that needed to be discussed, questions that needed to be answered, and recommendations to be made. To my surprise, even though there were different points of view, I did not hear one heated argument. We were all able to put aside ego and pride, and agree on a common solution through discussion. I was entrusted to carry the voice of the fellowship. A voice, when heard, that would make sure our three legacies through the steps, traditions, and concepts would be carried out through our group conscience.

It was the humbling experience of a lifetime. An experience that has made me a better man today than I was yesterday. I made new lifelong friends. It is an experience that I would recommend to anybody in our fellowship.

When I was drinking, I would often ask God: “Why me? Why was I cursed with this deadly disease? What did I do to deserve the life of an alcoholic?”

Today I still ask God the same question: “Why me? Why am I one of the fortunate alcoholics who has found recovery, through the 12 steps, in the rooms of AA?”

Levey P., Budapest
CER Delegate


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